Wake Up Call

When I say "I can't sleep"
what I really mean is
I don't want to,

I say yes I've tried Melatonin.
I say yes I turn off all the lights,
No, I don't drink coffee.
Yes. Everything.
I've tried everything.

But the real truth is,
I don't take Melatonin,
I have a bottle of it by my bedside
but I've never even opened it.
I always leave the light on
because I'm quite afraid of the dark.
I really don't drink coffee,
but I always have three cups of tea.

I certainly haven't tried everything,
because I just don't want to.
I'm scared of going to sleep because,
when I wake up I have to choose again.

So I stay up every night,
calling morning on the phone,
and when she comes,
I lock the door.